Could you tell me just what you’re doing?
Ignoring me from far away?
When every pretty word we ever said
Was the opposite in every way?
You claim to have been losing me
But I think you really just lost sight
It is I who has remained the same
And you who’s fallen from our friendship’s light.
I refuse to point my finger, though
I won’t shout and put you to blame,
It’s just I hurt inside from everything
Even the sound of your name.
Why isn’t it okay for me to do something
When you do the same yourself?
Why should I force myself to be what I’m not,
A cardboard copy from the shelf?
I am done living for you,
If you wish to return I won’t be there.
I won’t keep wishing and waiting
I will turn my back and walk away while you stare.
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about something from many years ago actually xD an online friend from a roleplay site
Alone and tired I sit around and think quietly to myself. Why did everything have to go all strange on me? Changes are natural but so many at once makes me wish the darkness would just swallow me up and never let me come back. No, I’m not going to end myself. That would just be stupid… or rather just too easy? Instead I sit through life’s suffering jabs and the loud shouting. The mental torture envelopes me. Yet I press on and then I remember what forgiveness REALLY sounds like: Screaming and then nothing more than stillness and silence…
—
Aleiko opened his eyes and panted. He quickly looked around. Seeing that there was nothing to be afraid of, the dragon calmed himself. He took a few moments to try to mop the red hair away from his brown scales… and found he could not. Then he recalled one crucial thing he had overlooked once again. His body was not his own to command. He was a living puppet at the disposal of his master, Lord Rafael.
The horrible nightmare of all his life’s sudden changes was true. For a moment he felt remorse… then nothing once more as Rafael’s iron hard grip forced itself stronger on his nerves. His friends Tiamat, Tatsu, and Thanthero would surely be upset now that they believed he willingly served the Raven Lord.
…And what of his fellow apprentice, Aisling? Surely she was crushed. Tia would try to comfort the dear girl but she would never be able to make up for the loss of Lei. Even Aleiko himself could not make up for it now. He was trapped and controlled.
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“I’m beaten down again, I belong to them. Beaten down again, I’ve failed you.” ~ Seether, “Truth”
Posted by: T-bird Tags: T-bird
I told him everything.
I gave him everything.
I knew everything.
Then I lost everything.
He was my dearest friend.
He was the one I confided in.
He was the one who knew everything.
And I lost everything.
I thought I knew him.
I thought he knew me.
I thought we knew eachother.
Still, I lost everything.
He was my friend,
But he was his friend,
And he was my enemy.
So I lost everything.
Maybe I was wrong.
Maybe he was right.
Maybe he lost everything.
Maybe I lost nothing.
A flash of light
Across the scales and eyes
Bats away the darkness
Of demise
It saves the soul
And heals the wounds of time
Love conquering the shadow
Spread over like an ocean
But not cold as water is
Rather warm and welcoming…
Something one must earn
Yet equally give
The night was a time for peace,
A time for healing.
A time for sleep.
Humming the bars of a song
The Gate-walkers step
Through the portal
Into the realm of war and peace.
Where sits the gathering gloom
Lifts the fading fog.
This was what eternal meant
And shall always mean.